well its raining outside, milo is having his way with jersey and brandon is at work. i've just been frustrated lately with things, aka life. as most of you know, i've wanted to move back to AZ for so long now. but brandon says he doesn't feel like the timing is right, right now. ok, so how about a baby instead? nope. but too be honest, as much as i want one, i know right now isn't a good time for one. i want to be home with family when we start having kids. i want to be surrounded by my loved ones, you know, family and friends...real friends. and surrounded by home. utah isn't home. it doesn't feel right to be here. i get frustrated that i'm missing out on everything back home. babies growing up, kids growing up, baptisms, friends starting families, family gatherings, temple sessions, family photos etc. i'm so alone up here. i dont have really close friends or family like i do in AZ. i dont know one single person in my ward. i work 40 hrs a week. come home to 2 dogs that tear up my carpet, eat my walls and throw up on my sweaters. and a husband that is way too tired after work to do anything. we eat dinner and go to bed by 8:30am cause bran is up at 4-5am every morning. my days off consist of cleaning my house and sitting on the couch. SO BORING. if i was home, i'd be out with family and friends, maybe even excersising! i mean dont get me wrong, i love my husband, dogs and house. i just wish this was all in AZ...with family. work is going good though i guess. i do get tired and annoyed by rude men that come in and call me sweetheart and honey. yuck! stop it. all i know is that if i was home, i'd having something to do all the time. i would have someone to go to the temple with, the gym with, peducures with, shopping with. blah blah blah. sorry for the sob story, just had to get it out.
at least i get to go to jimmy eat world in april♥
7 comments:
i just have to say that the grass is always greener on the other side. i mean i know you miss it here and we miss you but i'm kind of jealous that you are up there. i've been here for too long i think sometimes. hang in there! we love you
i luv you Jiddyn!!!!!
you have expressed what I have been feeling for the past 4 years (I would really like to be back home in NC). i know EXACTLY what you are going through. come with us when we move...we are going to AZ.
Oh Jillybopper! You are so blessed! To live somewhere beautiful with four seasons, to own your own home, to just be married with no kids . . . You can go and do anything at anytime! (lucky) Hang in there! Everything works out just the way it is suppose to even if you can't see why! I love you!
this is what blogs are all about! we wish you were here too, but you will be some day. just pray about it to know when the timing is right
Hello Jillyn. "Snug bug, Snug bug. little baby snug bug. Little baby BUG BUG. Little little angel. I love you!" I want to come to Jimmy with you. I am dead serious. When is it?
So sorry. I should have been calling you two to come to our family stuff but I know it just is not the same when it is not your own family. JaNae can totally relate and I hope some day you can move back to AZ to be with your fam.
nicole
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